Wounded. That is how I feel. I am sick and I am tired. We went a way this weekend because the whole ship had a black out yesterday so we stayed at a beach and it was really nice to be off the ship. The moist, salty air felt good to my wounded lungs.
I have been feeling unrest. Tyrone says it is normal for me right before a big transition. I think he is right. I do get uneasy before my life is going to change drastically. I have been really working on casting my cares upon the Lord and being anxious for nothing. But I still have this feeling of uneasiness.
When we got back from the beach I was listening to a song by JJ Heller that hit me to the core of my anxiety. As she sings this song my heart opens and the unrest slips away. How can I feel anything but peace when I have a God that is all I need? As my lungs burn each time I take a breath I needed to hear her remind me that He lets me catch my breath even in the valley of death. I needed to remember He is All I need.
I don’t need a thing
My good shepherd brings me all
You are all I need
You let me catch my breath
Even in the valley of death
You are all I need
All I need to be complete is your love
Your blood that covers me
You lift up my head
You provide the wine and bread
You are all I need
There’s no need to fear
Even with my enemies here
You are all I need
All I need to be complete is your love
Your blood that covers me
Goodness and mercy are following me
You are all that I need
You make a home for me
With pastures of green as far as I see
You are all I need
All I need to be complete is your love
Your blood that covers me
Lyrics by JJ Heller
Steph,
Praying you’ll get well very soon! I often struggle with anxious feelings such as you’ve described. One thing that really helps me (and the song you quoted above alludes to it) is meditating on the wondrous things God has in store for us in Heaven, and especially the fact that God is going to bring heaven to earth! And all of us believers will dwell in the New Earth for all eternity when Christ brings His Kingdom to its fullness!
I’ve been reading the book “Heaven” by Randy Alcorn which describes what we have to look forward to. When you get time, you might check it out.
Looking forward to seeing you guys soon,
Raf
Hey Raf,
Yeah, that was a good book…I read it! (maybe I can find it for Stephanie in the library)
Tyrone